Journal Pages #2

on insight, obstacles, and perseverence

These journalling prompts came from the Astral Realms Crystal Oracle deck by Prism & Fleur.

I am limitless. I am boundless. I go within to gain insight and understanding

I have recently come to the end of a road I’ve been walking for 13 years. Yet instead of a fork, I am met with a web. The opportunities ahead of me are no longer two sides of the same coin, but more varied and exciting, each one diverging into further possibilities I’ve never allowed myself to consider. My potential is no longer limited by a career path I fell into when plan A and plan B didn’t work, but by whatever I am willing to work at. My energy is no longer depleted daily in pursuit of a life that no longer serves me. I have unlocked more freedom than I have ever been afforded before in my life. The chapter ahead of me will turn my focus internally, exploring my depths to uncover insight into what it is I desire from life now I have an idea of what I don’t.

I feel it is a shame that it has taken me so long to allow myself this chance to discover myself, but it cannot be rushed. Though I’ve had people telling me for years I needed a change, until I had worked through it and arrived at the conclusion myself, I was unable to make the decision necessary to truly set me on a new path. The choice to start afresh must come from within, and it requires a fair bit of preparation. Nothing is ever as easy as taking someone’s advice. The motivation has to come from within.

I have the strength within me to overcome any obstacle that stands in my way

I’m not sure that this prompt really resonates with me currently. I don’t have goals right now other than improving my health, and I cannot “persevere” my way to overcoming the obstacle of poor health. I do know that I have been incredibly resilient to have maintained juggling everything up until breaking point but overall, persistence and determination haven’t served me particularly well over the last couple of years. I’d argue that perseverance and finding the strength to push through played a prominent role in my burn out.

I accept that I was directing all my energy at pursuits that didn’t serve, which makes me hesitant to label perseverance as the enemy, but for now I do not wish to persevere. I do not wish to be strong, to be resilient, to be ambitious. I want to be soft. I want the freedom to explore without pressure. I don’t want to be forced into surmounting obstacles in pursuit of anything! I am in my resting era.

I am able to act upon my intuition and be guided by my experiences to fully align with my soul’s purpose

I’ve done a really good job at suppressing the voice of my intuition and I think it will take some time for me to learn to listen to her again.

When my body screamed NO, I finally tuned in to all the ways in which my physical vessel had been begging me to stop and I silenced her no longer. My intuition though, she feels overlooked and neglected, ignored and downtrodden. I imagine she is shy to speak up after so long going unheard. I hope I can begin to notice her quiet voice as she gains more confidence to speak up once more.

I’ve definitely been guided my past experience to know well enough what my soul’s purpose ISN’T, but it’ll take some time and reflection and exploration to discover what my purpose truly IS. I have so many ideas and a lot of potential floating around in my head, but I’m not ready to dive in feet first just yet! I’m enjoying just being open to everything at the moment, dabbling here and there as I feel called. I have an inkling of the direction I’d like to take, so watch this space I suppose!

Thank you for reading the inner ramblings of a lost soul, if you’re interested in following along I’d love to have you! Sending love always x